60 lines
3.8 KiB
HTML
60 lines
3.8 KiB
HTML
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<html lang="en">
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<meta charset="UTF-8">
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<meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1.0">
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<title>about</title>
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<base href="https://www.lukasrosier.com">
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<style>
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body {
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margin: 10vw;
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font-family: "Lucida Sans Unicode", "Lucida Grande", sans-serif;
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background-image: radial-gradient(circle, midnightblue 0.5px, ghostwhite 1px);
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background-size: 10px 10px;
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}
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img {
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height: 100%;
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width: 100%;
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object-fit: contain;
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}
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ul {
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background-color: white;
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}
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</style>
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<body>
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<article>
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<p>I am confused. Look I have always been confused. how, why. my head seems not follow my thoughts. unlike a chess player i cannot think more than 2 steps ahead. so there is no plan onky the wish for planing but everytime i want to think somethign logically through, plan the steps ahead to get to a desires outcome. i get lost.lost in meaning lost in soing. lost in whywhywhy, howhowhow, ending in the question: does this actually bring anythig to the table, is ot worth somehing, is it usefull? is it beautiful? the credo of the time i am alive in has put this nagging thing in my head that quwstions everything i do. every action i takd. but rightfully so. why do i try to go the hard way? why do i try to swim upstream? why do i try so hard not to be normal? because there is nothing wrong to be nirmal, there is nothing wrong to do as others and here and there a little bit different. the normal is ok. like do a job, do something. taking responsibilty. its fun and fullfilling. it gets you money. you can buy food and qol. find your people. take responsibilty. raise a next generation. its fun and fullfilling. just the compromise of old biology and new cultural normativity. its all fine. the normal way. sleep eat move do build sometimes alone, more often with others. social means responsibilty. words and acrtions are synchronized. and then everything is fine. its the revolution </p>
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<p>but being alone for so long, puts this thing in your head. you have to prove your worth, because otherwise your solitude is a hoax. it seems shelling in´ trying to be a genius in ypur head, is ye, what is it, vortexing about your intellect and creativity, telling yourself that you are something misunderstood, if only they would see see see what you can rhink. if only they could experience what you have in your mind. its a hoaxhoaxhoax. you are alone. and here i say it. you are creative your are smart. but it means nothing. i dont even say it means nothing when you dont materialise. even if you create and make it happen, real. it means nothing. </p>
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<p>its a shared life. just dont be an asshole </p>
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<p>being too much alone (sometimes its ok) is an asshole move </p>
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<p>do t do it </p>
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fuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkk. i do not want to tell you shit. i want a boat. fukkkkkkk. i hate all offfff you
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i hate people who embrace themselves for being good at a certain thing and being bad at another. i want people who can do everthing from nothing.
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i hate people that hate their lifes. i want people that want want want life.
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i want to talk about things to build. i want to shape shape shape.
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i have a modell an idea a concept of how reality works is constructed blabla bla. it is a construct a fiction my life in this culture in this time time it is an idea a fiction a story. i can we can shape shape shape shape fucking shape it change change change change fucking change it.
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engage with me if you are free if you understand life
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pls disassoziate from your self, see yourself as a comstruct of life culture time circumstance
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build build build build build
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create create create create
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it is the only way out,
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agency self agency take a stance a vita activa have a fucking life
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</article>
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</body>
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